When I was around 8- 10 years on testosterone I started getting very bad cramps, in my lower abdomen. Sort of like bad period cramps is the only way for me to describe it. Mostly it was after an orgasm but sometimes it would just come.
I went to see a gynecologist and well I can laugh now at how funny that scenario was BUT looking back it was not at the time. Sitting in a waiting room full of women, of course because the gynecologist is for females, I felt like a fish out of water. All the women of different ages just staring at me. I think maybe they thought I was someones boyfriend waiting for my girlfriend. Anyway after waiting about one hour or so and feeling very uncomfortable the nurse or assistant , I can’t remember, came out as I was the last one there and said “The doctor does not feel comfortable seeing you” Even though I had an appointment, waited a long time and have a vagina, My face must have dropped because she said “ I have a gay sister and if you don’t care I can do your pap smear and check up” And I took her up on it.
After telling her what the problem was she proceeded to do the whole speculum thing and it is always so insane, I do not care what you identify as , every female I know hates that part! It’s so invasive and just weird. But for someone like myself it’s just all around uncomfortable.
Anyway the outcome to that visit was “nothing I can see is wrong” so just take some advil when the pain comes..and out of the stirrup and on my way home I went. For the next five or more years the cramps got worse and the gynocologist’s could not determine the cause.
Then one day it happened. The cramps after working out, the fever, the “I do not feel good” and then next thing I am rushed to the emergency room where I had to tell them “ I have a vagina” because they were scrambling and trying to figure out why my temperature was so high. I am a female who looks just like a Dude, my id, my passport everything says male. If I was not aware enough to say anything, even though my partner was with me at the time, how would they even know what to do! This was also all happening in Mexico where I lived at the time so even the language barrier was something to deal with, as I said “ Hombre con Vagina” and they looked at me like I was insane..again I can laugh now but OMG so insane. Bottom line they diagnosed me with this:
Longterm use of testosterone had fused my uterus and cervix creating a infection which “popped” and caused sepsis. I had vaginal atrophy and if the hormone doctor would have given me an estrogen supplement this might have never happened! But as I am a guinea pig when it comes to transition, as well, all of us as they still have no idea what long term use of cross sex hormones do to us!
Close to possible death as they told me. Scary times! This is all medically documented BTW as well in my documentary which is on Amazon called Mr Angel if you want to verify what I am saying. Because I have had some trans people call me a liar! Insane “community”
The reason I am writing this right now is because of this gynecologist who is on X saying that a trans woman is a woman and if you say other wise then you are a BIGOT! WHAT. This is a doctor who is suppose to understand biology and should never make medicine political.
I have fought long and hard to help educate gynecologist’s on the best way to treat us transsexual female to male and NEVER ever said we are MEN. It is so important that our biology stay in the transition conversation. Especially when stuff like the vaginal atrophy happened to me. And now happening to so many more trans guys.
Then I looked at her profile and she is the parent of a trans woman! There it is. She is letting her politics get in the way of being an actual physician!! Her rhetoric hurts the transsexual space more than helps. Lying about biology should get your medical license revoked!! Disgusting,
Trans rights should include reality based medicine and telling people the truth. You do not get thirty plus years living like I do by lying. You get here by being a realist and not trying to pretend you do not have a vagina.
This is so true!
I have lived the last 20 years of my life - unable to enjoy darn near ANYTHING without suffering from strange and uncomfortable palpitations...
For decades, it was dismissed as an aversion or sensitivity to foods, medication, and alcohol.
It dismissed as anxiety!
And it wasn't until very recently I was FINALLY diagnosed with a minor (fixable) genetic heart condition!
Now, when I go to any hospital with palpitations and I mention my condition, the course of treatment is like night and day!
I just cannot fathom ANYONE in need of medical intervention failing to state the obvious!
Doing so could save your life!
Buck I love you and your honesty so much. When my daughter (12) told me she "is a boy" one of the first things I told her is that no matter what she wears, what her pronouns are, or what she might change her public records to say, her body will ALWAYS be female and there are very critical health and wellness reasons why she needs to be honest with herself and others about that. To this day she refuses to wear anything from the women's department (even black crew neck t shirts) but she takes a women's one-a-day vitamin every day without argument.