Damned If You Do and Damned If You Don't

I changed my mind, Isn't that point of hearing all sides.

So I sit here thinking if I should even publish this piece. Am I giving it too much thought and energy? It made me feel exhausted. But I also remember that I have many supporters who do see my intentions as good. Changing my mind about puberty blockers and kids is a good thing. Beside all of this internet insanity and hate I have helped many other parents who have “trans kids” not transition their children and today those kids are living full-filled lives without ever transitioning.

“Trans Kids” I once thought this was a great idea. I was given information that made me say to myself “ I wonder if this would have helped me and I would not have ended up on drugs and homeless”

But fast forward today and I have changed my mind. I want to first tell you why I have decided to write this post and it sort of saddens me but at the same time I guess I should have expected this as I was told to expect it, but my heart would not let me as I really always try to see the good before the bad.

X( formally known as Twitter) can be a hell-hole sometimes, and other times it can be a great place for information. I have also made many online friends there. BUT, a big BUT, there has always been a nasty mean part of it that is full of angry people. Some of the anger I understand and some I think is misguided. That’s just an opinion,

So let me get on with the actual reason I am writing this story.

This week on X a group of people, what you all call gender critical, posted a video chat I did five years ago discussing a “trans kid” who I said “I worked with” and using this video to say I transition children and that I am a liar. It’s so obvious they spent time trying to find this 16 second clip in order to “cancel me” or make me look like a liar when I say transitioning a child is not ok and there is no such thing as “trans kids”. I also said “I have never transitioned a child” which I never have. That would be impossible for me to do as I am not a doctor.

If you just take this video at face value it looks like I am a liar BUT what these people do not explain is that this is five years ago when I did believe that trans kids were a thing , that this video reflects me dealing with a Mother who reached out to me and it was my very first time ever hearing about puberty blockers and kids. My information was coming from her and Dr. Olsen-Kennedy of the Los Angeles Children’s Hospital. Remember it was fairly new back then and not a lot of information except from these doctors who we now know did not have the correct information. Though recently it has also came to light that Dr. Olsen-Kennedy did not release the studies that showed puberty blockers do not help the mental health of these children. But that’s another story!

When I was “working” with this kid and Mother of the trans kid what I meant was I was giving her moral support because she was scared about making this choice and we were both being told the same thing “This is great and it will save this child’s life”. Tell me you would not believe that from an “expert’ doctor. Most people in that situation would as both the Mother and I did.

As time went by I was starting to get more information given to me against the puberty blockers and I read it all, it blew my mind! How can this be! I thought this was studied and a fact that it would help, but that was not the case. I had no other choice but to speak up and out about changing my mind and saying NO to puberty blockers. But more so was this insane amount of “trans kids” the self id and anyone can claim to be trans that really made me see the light. I changed my mind. Isn’t that a good thing?

I am so confused at what these gender critical people want. You would think they would be happy with my public stance instead of trying to call me a liar and disrupt my credibility. The whole thing started when a de-transitioner who I also supported decided to start calling me she as well that I “transition kids” and I am a pornographer! What the heck..it was out of left field. I thought we were actually ok with each other. This created a shit storm and opened the door for all the “gender critical” to chase me down. Like a mob on the streets! No sense in even trying to defend yourself as they will not listen. I am also good at blocking people like this.

I am a human who makes mistakes like we all do and so if you cannot own up to your mistakes what kind of person are you? I will almost bet many of these same people who judge me have skeletons in their closet. It is just that I have a big platform and thus I am a BIG TARGET for their anger.

I was warned they would turn on me when I was no longer of use to their cause. I just wonder what their actual “cause” is.